bye 2009

I should probably rename this blog "My Dysfunctional Relationship" because as i scan my posts over the course of '09--i see that ever other post is about Wally. I don't know what for, he isnt gonna change. I should not even expect for him to change.

Anyway this post is not about him at all.

I dont do new years resolutions....those are for lames. I believe that MY new year starts on my birthday. I mean January 1, 1984 i wasnt even conceived. Since the beginning of my new yeat i have had a few downturns.....i lost my job, my son's father all but stopped providing and i turned down a marriage proposal from the love of my life. Through these times there have been sunny spots-- he hasn't left me, my son is an honor roll student and my landlords are understanding. My new year is in full swing.

I cant complain. 2009 sucked simply because Michael Jackson died. Seriously, i feel like i lost a my favorite uncle. On the other hand i developed a meaningful relationship with my mother. I learned that i am a lot like her in a lot of way and that i love her. I make sure i visit her at least once a week and remind her that i do love her. REGARDLESS OF EVERYTHING--SHE BIRTHED ME AND I WILL FOREVER BE GRATEFUL. The past is the past and she needs me. I believe that everything happens for a reason and if anything---Im stronger. Forgiving my mother made me a better woman and thats what im striving to be.

Good bye 2009, thanks for everything!