Well, i have done it....Not just in theory either.

See, it just wasn't working and i couldn't make it work. It was unrepairable and i knew it.

He could leave me to believe that he loves me and that is all i should need. Love only gets you but so far, trust, loyalty and respect takes you the rest of the way. I was willing to compromise myself wholeheartedly in hopes that he would grow.

I ended my relationship. It was dysfunctional as shit. There is no doubt that i love him but im not IN love with him anymore. I outgrew him a while ago and i didnt want to admit it to myself. Anyway, when i initially told him i was done he immediately claimed to understand. Then he logically stated, "i guess i didnt grow fast enough". Huh? I was WOWED by this statement because i feel like he knew he was hindering my progress and expected for me to allow it to continue.

If anything i was slipping in retrograde because I had reduced myself to his level of pettiness. Although confessing my indiscretion felt good---i only did it to see his hurt. I did to crush his ego. I wanted him to feel how i have felt time and time again.....and i was successful. That isn't even me.......I would rather leave then to cheat. Why mirror the actions of a little boy in a grown man's boy?

Because i had deluded myself into believing that he would grow. WE would grow together.