random thoughts---you know me

I'm Pregnant! YAAAAAAAAA for us...i guess. My husband is elated as is Khalil--me not so much. I haven't attempted to carry a child to full term in 8 years. The morning sickness is driving me insane. The random crying spells (yes, Ive been crying buckets over nothing), my breast have already swollen a whole cup size, and dammit I'm having the worst headaches known to woman.

I miss my mommy. Man, i haven't spoken to Lolita since the whole child abuse thing went down. I mean part of me feels like I'm being petty but then on the same accord i feel like she should have never taken him to see that lady to begin with. I don't have anyone to talk to. My mother-in-law says i can come to her and talk about anything but its kinda hard to vent to a mother about her son and that what i want to do right now vent. Lolita is such a wonderful woman, i hope i haven't burned that bridge---it would have been a totally unnecessary fire.

Everything else is just great. My son made the honor roll--again. People act like i should be surprised but he is my son. I know what he is capable of. He is intelligent, articulate and has an insatiable thirst for knowledge. I watch him pass up video games and outside time just to read a book. He has a vocabulary that wows me sometimes. he's the greatest. I think i would be utterly SHOCKED if he didn't make the honor roll especially since he shoots for the success roll every quarter.

i have about 3 poems coming soon