missing children

I am a mother. I love my sons more than i love myself. If one of them were to go missing--i don't know how i would compose myself.

About 2 months ago Khalil decided not to come straight home from school. After an hour i walked around the whole neighborhood asking people, "have you seen my son?", and kept getting the same no. Every time someone said no---my heart dropped more.  Everybody knows Khalil--the d-boys, the store owners and the other parents. After hour 2, i called the police. By that time i was livid--crying hysterically--snot and all. I thought someone had taken my world from me. Wally tried to calm me down but all i thought at that moment is I'm never gonna see MY son again. In any given neighborhood in Baltimore City there are at least 50 registered sex offender---and even more who have not gotten caught.

The police officer got there quickly--but only because he knew Khalil personally so when he heard my address on the scanner---he dropped everything to come. He told me as much. As the cruiser drove up the alley, Khalil sauntered up the alley as well. I still could not stop crying. Apparently, my 8 year old decided that going to his friend's house before checking in was okay.

Lets keep it 100--they don't give a damn about black children. If little Suzy were missing--an amber alert would be flashing everywhere immediately. Unfortunately, when its Kisha, the scenario goes a little something like this.

Mother: please send the police to my home, my child is missing
Dispatcher: age/sex/race? what was the child wearing and when was the last time you saw the child?
Mother: (gives all requested information)
Dispatcher: an officer will be there immediately
30-45 minutes later an officer arrives.

Officer: Do you have recent picture of the child?
Mother: yes (provides latest picture)
Officer: Thank you, we will do all we can to find your child (officer leaves)

No news reports, no flashing lights. Just a mother, family and friends searching desperately for their loved ones.

When Phylicia Barnes went missing--it took a major movement from social networking sites just for the local news to even pick up the story and even harder work for the story to go national. She has been missing since December and you rarely hear her name any longer. Everyday day in America brown children vanish and are never heard from again. What is really fucked up---is that other black folk rarely want to assist in the search. Real shit---people are quick to chalk it up with the mentality that it is not their child so it isn't a pressing matter. THAT IS WRONG!

I will ALWAYS help in any way i can when a child goes missing simply because if MY child goes missing---i pray people would do the same for me. I will always assist because i can only imagine what that child's parents are going through and no one should have to go to sleep at night worry about their child's whereabouts. As a community WE have to protect our youth.